Trapped In Wonderland

We'd been dancing around each other for so long that I forgot who made the first move. I don't remember how it started, not exactly. All I know is that one day you showed up and I couldn't imagine my life without you anymore. But we came with an expiration date. Things like this never ended well for me. And though this one had trouble written all over it, I chose to dive right in.

I remember it. I remember it all. The first time our eyes met, my world changed. On day one, you told me not to take constructive criticisms seriously and that we don’t deserve anything less. You said you believe in me and that I have talents and potentials or maybe more. Day by day, I felt like a brand new me because I am learning a lot from you.

It's weird, isn't it? How you can fall in love with someone at the most unexpected time and it be the most unexpected person. You can fall in love with someone that isn't your ideal Prince Charming or White Knight. Weird how that is. 

Each day it gets easier without you, Not seeing you or talking. Now I still miss you, Always will. I'll still wanna talk and be friends, But can we after everything? All the late night talks, The smiles and laughs, The kisses like no other, The sex can't compare to another. You'll always have a special spot in my heart.

Your mouth smiles in this way. I can’t describe it. I can’t. Lord knows, I want to, but I can’t. Besides, who would I describe it to anyways?

There are days when I crave someone's hug. And most of the days I crave real happiness and love. I don't know why I feel so empty and blank. And I don't share these to my friends because I know how miniscule and selfish it is.

You share a home with the one whom your soul chose along with your offspring created in the early spring of your young love. Once the morning dew has left, the fog of new love has dicipated and the cool evenings turn to humid nights things begin to change.

Clawing at the air, Grasping only nothing. Screaming to the night, Wondering why you're gone. Now you're just an angel, Flying in the sky. Watching me from up above, As I mourn over you.