The Unsent Love Letter
Let me start off, by saying sorry. I’m sorry that I’ve betrayed your trust. I’m sorry that all this time you taught that I was a good friend of yours but in reality, I’m just a deceitful man cloaking in the mantle of friendship secretly loving you.
I never meant it to be like this, at first it was only a simple crush. Who could blame me? When I first saw you, I was stunned by your sophisticated elegant beauty. You walk like the world is your runway, your eyes looking so fierce as if it looks down those who would try to defy you. You’re like a superb fusion of modern day Cleopatra and a ballerina.
Then I had the chance of talking to you. At I first I was intimidated by your beauty and I’m not the type of person who gets easily intimidated. But I was amazed by the way you talk, you’re so easy to converse with and your choice of words, it’s something you don’t hear from a lady of your stature. Those qualities make you one of a kind but despite your humor and laughter, I can sense sadness and regret in your eyes and tone of voice.
After a while of having these small talks, you finally told me what happened why you carry that uncertain sadness in your eyes. Right there and then, I saw you in a whole new light. The adversities you’ve faced and the burdens you’ve been carrying is something not to be handled alone but you did it anyway.
You made me realize how in depth your character really is, as days go by, we talk about a lot of things you've been through, your flaws, your weaknesses, your series of bad decisions and the dreams you’ll accomplish. You’re not just a pretty face with a humor. You’re a strong woman meant to be a queen that was always been taken for granted.
You’re dauntless in the face of your difficulties. You never cared about the destructive criticism of those people who don’t know you. You always held your head high.
Every time we had a small talk, eat together with friends, talking about our lives, or just by seeing you - I’m feeling this unusual sense of happiness and I can’t take this smile off my face whenever you're around. Suddenly, just sitting beside you or seeing you from afar is something I long and before I know it - I’m falling in love with you. I tried to keep this feeling at bay because I know this is something you don’t need as of the moment and would just add to the things that would trouble you.
All I wanted is to make you feel special without anything in return. I want to lift your spirits up when the stress seems so heavy. I want to make you realize that what happened is not your fault and everything happens for a reason. I want to make you laugh whenever you're about to cry. I want to create a sanctuary for you wherein no other guys would bother you with their bullshits.
I want you to smile about small things you received even though you’ll never know that it came from me or I’m behind it pulling the strings. I never wanted the credit or anything in return, all I want is for you to be happy. I want to tell you that even though the last faggots broke your heart, don’t you give up on love.
I know that what I’m feeling is true because the moment I noticed I’m falling in love with you, I did things I don’t usually do, I utter words I don’t usually say, I dreamt of things I don’t usually care about, I disobeyed all the rules in my playbook - simply because, I am not playing anymore.
I just want you to know how I feel but I’m not expecting any answer right away, I’m willing to wait, I just want you to know that there’s somebody like me secretly loving you from afar.
In an instance though that you feel that I don’t deserve your love or we are not meant for each other. Don’t worry, I’ll wholeheartedly accept your decision. I won’t be angry nor go away unless you want me to. I’ll be contented to cherish this friendship - the only thing you can offer.
But for some miracle and the heavens permit it, you’ll give me a chance to love you and to show you my feelings towards you. I will love you more than a lover, I will love you like a best friend, like a soulmate, like it happens in all the movies. I will sweep you off your feet, I will make you feel again, something that you thought you lost. I want you to share every piece of your past with me, I want to be a part of your future. But most importantly, I want to love you like I have never been hurt.
Despite of what you say or think after reading this letter, let me finish this off saying thank you! Thank you for letting me know that it is possible for me to feel like this again. Thank you for those moments that I felt I was in the clouds just by thinking of you. Thank you for making me realize that I am capable of giving unconditional love.
