Love

I can't erase the traces of you, they'll forever be there.

I've just learnt to live with it. All the things, whether it is how you'll never be mine or even the fact that I'll never see you again, I know that you knew that I liked you but I bet you that you never how deeply I was affected by you and how it was more than just a liking. 

I was enamored by you , totally enchanting or all those fancy words that are there in the languages of words. 

Even after five years you're still the only person I think of whenever somebody mentions words like love or crush . I never showed anyone how deeply in love I was with you nor did anyone realize because as always I am and always has been good at pretending but my love just because I masked my love with the fake facade of nonchalance I just wanna confess something not to you ofcourse, I never had nor will have enough guts for that but to myself and anyone who reads this because I can no longer keep denying it . 

My boy you're the only man who ever made me feel something as close to love and you'll be the guy with whom I'll compare every male that I'll let in close enough and be with if possible because even though WE never dated I've been with a very few guys and trust me when I say no one comes even close to you . I'll never be able to explain you or my attachment to you in words but I'll always keep trying to bleed these words out up until I finally have you off and out of my system. So this isn't the first nor the last time I write about you but it sure is significant for me because it was this moment when I removed you from the title of being a first crush and gave you the throne of being my first and only love , yet .